Monday, July 23, 2012

Tears

Dear Jordy-Bug,

I had a few tears today, but I didn't break down completely. This is the first day since you died that I can say that. It doesn't mean that I don't love you. In fact, my love for you grows more and more every day. Perhaps it means I'm getting stronger and starting to heal a little. I hope that makes you smile.

I love you, sweet girl.

Love,
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27 comments:

  1. AnonymousJuly 23, 2012 at 11:34 PM

    So very glad to hear it, Kelly.

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  2. KellyJuly 23, 2012 at 11:35 PM

    :)

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  3. UnknownJuly 23, 2012 at 11:38 PM

    this makes my heart happy <3 :) continuing to pray for you

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  4. alisonJuly 23, 2012 at 11:40 PM

    Totally makes me smile! And I love your smile in the photo with your friend.

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  5. CindyJuly 24, 2012 at 12:21 AM

    :)hug... and prayers for strength.

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  6. EllenJuly 24, 2012 at 7:34 AM

    You are such a beautiful lady! Praying for healing for your heart and your eyes! May God keep you and Dennis wrapped tight in his arms through out this week!

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  7. UnknownJuly 24, 2012 at 8:20 AM

    So very glad to hear it Kelly. xoxo

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  8. AnonymousJuly 24, 2012 at 8:21 AM

    Still praying and hugging you from a distance. LY. Donna

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  9. AnonymousJuly 24, 2012 at 8:35 AM

    Thank you Lord for moments of healing. So happy to hear Kelly. Thanks for sharing. Praying for continued healing and joy. Cathy B

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  10. AnonymousJuly 24, 2012 at 9:19 AM

    That's great to hear. I still pray for you and Dennis every day. Matt

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  11. RebeccaJuly 24, 2012 at 9:54 AM

    Great news :) Love you...

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  12. dstokesJuly 24, 2012 at 11:42 AM

    Praying constantly and blessed to hear of this victory. ;)

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  13. Sara KranpitzJuly 24, 2012 at 1:26 PM

    Yay!!!! That is so good to hear!!! I remember the first day I laughed after the kids died and I was chastising myself saying "how can you even have a moment of laughter when they are dead?". It was hard to make myself believe that just because I was feeling OK for a little while didn't mean I missed them any less or that the tragedy was any worse. That was a hard, hard, hard lesson to learn. So glad to see you making some progress towards not breaking down every day!!!!!!! I hope you retreat goes well!!!

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    1. KellyJuly 24, 2012 at 2:51 PM

      Yep, there's guilt....learning to live with lots of unpleasant feelings.

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  14. Brett D.July 25, 2012 at 10:55 PM

    If this brief but important update makes me smile, then I know that Jordy-bug is smiling too!

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On March 14, 2012, I gave birth to Jordyn, the most beautiful baby girl ever. During delivery, however, she was deprived of oxygen. We lived with her in the NICU for two weeks, loving her, holding her, reading to her, singing to her, bathing her, changing her diapers, styling her full head of dark brown hair, praying over her, and sharing her with friends and family, until she went home to Jesus on March 28, 2012. These are my love letters to Jordyn Tyse-Dallas "TD" Sander; our little Jordy-Bug.